God began to encourage me to show up and be present for my Grandma, even when that was the hardest and most painful thing. Loving someone with no guaranteed love in return? HARD. Realizing the disease she now possessed would eventually overtake her little by little everyday, and there’s nothing you can do to help her? DOUBLE HARD.
“Am I a well or a wedding band?“
This was the question the Lord asked me as I dreamt one night. Though seemingly straightforward, this simple question has become infinitely richer upon further contemplation. It has corrected several of my misconceived notions about God and revealed deeper layers of His character and love.
“Are you a well or a wedding band? “
I woke up in the morning after a full night of vivid dreams. Though the events of the dreams were still fresh in my mind and seemed full of significance, this one question stood head and shoulders above it all. I knew the moment I heard the words that it was God Himself speaking to me and as a result of the utmost importance.
Tragedy. An event causing great suffering, destruction, and distress.
This summer, I received the shocking news that my good friend’s husband had passed away from a sudden heart attack. Physically fit and healthy-looking on the outside did not reveal any health concerns nor any imaginable heart problems. A young wife suddenly a widow and two beautiful girls fatherless. What do you do?
...curled up on the uncomfortable couch in our room, I prayed something like, “God help me; I’m such an idiot!” Seriously. Not only did I have an excruciating sunburn, but I also realized that I didn’t build sandcastles with my girls for one second because I was focused on getting a week’s worth of tan in that one glorious day.
The Creator kneels in the fertile soil of the new land, the dense loam clinging to His bare knees. He lifts a heaping handful of the rich earth to His face and inhales its moist, dark fragrance. He places it on the ground, making a small, seemingly insignificant mound in that broad, bare plain. He grabs another handful and adds it to the first, then another and another. Eventually, He begins to pack and smooth the rough pile.