When I Am Weak
by Debbie Brown
Several weeks ago I woke up feeling weary. Now, I could give you several good reasons why I woke up feeling tired, but this felt deeper than just tired. This was a soul-weariness, and it made me want to stay in bed. However, I knew staying in bed (mentally or physically) wasn’t going to fix anything and it wasn’t ultimately what I wanted either.
There was a cloud hanging over my head. I didn’t know how to get out from under it, or if I even had the strength to.
Recently, God convinced me to start waking up early and praying through several powerful and poignant scripture passages. This particular morning this practice felt rote and lifeless, but what did I have to lose? I struggled through the scriptures, trying to see power and life in words on a page, trying not to mindlessly read them, trying to wake up my heart.
As I was praying through Ephesians 3, asking the Holy Spirit to strengthen me, for me to be rooted and grounded in Christ’s love, and for the fullness of God in me (which felt ridiculous at that moment), out of nowhere, I heard in my heart:
“When I am weak, He is strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10 NIV)
I paused. I had heard this verse since nursery school. But now it came alive!
So what if I’m weak? So what? I can be weak! It’s okay if I’m weak… because HE is strong. This is so opposite of what the world and our flesh say about weakness. They either make us feel like we aren’t enough and tell us some new way to get stronger, or they tell us that our weakness is justified and we can wallow in our pitiful state. But this is not what Christ offers. He says, It’s okay, you get to be weak, because I will be strong for you. There’s no guilt or shame when you are feeling weak, but there’s also no free pass to stay in bed and throw a pity party when He’s offering His strength.
Jesus told us there would be days we wouldn’t feel like getting out of bed. “In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NIV)
I think a lot of us unconsciously rewrite that last sentence: “But take heart! You can overcome the world.” But that’s not what Jesus said. Overcoming the world was and is His job. So the pressure is off, friends! And on those days we are weary, choose Him, and not the solutions the world offers. Even if you don’t feel like it, GO to the places where you’ve experienced God and wait for Him. Keep going to Jesus until your heart wakes up.